Thoughts on a new moon eveningPosted: August 29, 2011
The band War fills the the background space,
Let nobody get you downnnnn
lyrics that inform my mental landscape
its a new moon tonight new beginnings anxiousness anticipation.
Ive been feeling more grounded in Oakland
San Francisco was too cold not right for me
No real way to overcome the alienation I have felt since I was young
when my fresh mind was cluttered with worry and fear
fear that my father would kill my mother
fear that we would lose our house
fear that my peers would know how dysfunctional my home was.
No support or community just shame.
We are forced to carry the violence of a system all on our own
polluting our spirit till we release ourselves to it.
Smoke herb to get through the days and pain of just living.
The alienation takes over here we are alone.
Then again we are not alone We all silently share this reality
destruction hunger violence
at the hands of a Patriarchal State
that hides the truth and pits us against each other
That cancerous competition
so characteristic of the engines of Capital that take and take and take
monsters trying to outdo each other
who can conquer the earth
so characteristic of the Patriarchal civilizations that have existed
since time became a tool used by man
later to become super exploited by the chains of Capital
Time a logical extension of this machine intruding upon our life and pysche
Patriarchy and Capitalism A blissful marriage
sustained for centuries by the supposed ‘brilliance’ of our oppressors
that we are forced to worship in their schools.
We try to get through our days scrambling to stay positive
struggling with the itch inside that maybe things don’t have to be this way
not knowing that other women men children
are kept up late at night with similar thoughts
frustrations that can practically translate into revolutions
if we stay alert paying attention to the cracks that erupt across time
joyful openings of history unfolding upon itself
and I watch feeling the poisonous weight shed from my body
pupils gleaming in the beauty of the new moon light.